Psalm 55 in my life

Posted on 05 December 2012 by Tonny de Bok

 

The Bible is a very special book for me. Especially the Psalms are speaking about life as it is. In particular Psalm 55 was very important to me some years ago, because it pictured my own situation as it were. It was a time in which I felt myself as a prisoner.

Verse 3 says: “Because of the voice of the enemy. Because of the pressure of the wicked; for they bring down trouble upon me. And in anger they bear a grudge against me”. Verse 5: “ Fear and trembling come upon me; and horror has overwhelmed me”. Also the verses13-15 are close to my experience.

Night and day I was groaning and I called on Adonai. And He answered me. Baruch HaShem! He has set me free from my prison and feelings of fear. Because I surrendered myself to Him totally, I experienced His great love and lovingkindness towards me. In my psychosis I thought that He had left me forever. This caused a terrible fear of death.Later on I understood that this was a big lie of the enemy of God who tried to destroy me. But Yeshua has conquered the adversary and redeemed me from the enemy’s claws. In the hospital where I was I told my psychiatrist how Psalm 55 was the story of my life. This doctor translated the whole psalm from the Hebrew language and put it in my patient-file. During my stay in the hospital I also heard in my spirit the sound of a shofar and I did not know yet the sound of a shofar during that time.

A month after my release from the hospital the Lord led me to the Messianic Jewish Congregation Beth Yeshua in Amsterdam. During the celebration of Rosh Chodesh (New moon) the Shofar is blown there. I recognized the sound and for me it meant that Adonai had set me free and answered my prayer. I had prayed: lead me into Your truth and teach me.  During six years I am in Beth Yeshua. I learn about Torah and Yeshua and that they belong together.

The Lord has provided for me in all my needs. He gives me His ointment of joy instead of mourning. A beautiful garment of praise instead of a spirit of withering, as the prophet Isaiah says (61:3).

I hope to continue to learn and to be taught from His marvelous Word and to apply it in my life under His protection.

Let me conclude this testimony with the last verse from Psalm 55, verse 23: “But you will bring them down, God, into the deepest pit. Those men, so bloodthirsty and treacherous, will not live out half their days. But for my part, Adonai, I put my trust in you.” (Stern Bible).

Shalom,
Tonny