To stand for G-ds People, my People

To stand for G-ds people, my people!

by Yvonne van der Tas

That is Esther’s attitude, but also the attitude that I want to have in just all the little ordinary things in my life. But for this, courage, wisdom, patience, communication and vigor are needed. The call is there for everyone, to develop this for the world to come (II Corinthians 4: 16-18).

I have been attending Beth-Yeshua, Amsterdam, for the past 20 years now and it seems as if a new personal development is taking place in my life. In pervious articles I mentioned my job as a maternity care nurse in the hospital and the process of being born and the pain and trouble associated with that.

They are experiences that I like to share, because we can learn so many things from each other when we learn to be vulnerable, transparent and most of all genuine. Coming from a Pentecostal/evangelistic background I came to Beth –Yeshua in 1998. My mother-in-law was through her life an example to me and aroused my curiosity and that is where my journey started. From home I inherited norms and values of the Bible from a Christian perspective.

As a young child (7 years old), I made the choice to follow G’d and took the road. Shelter Beth-Yeshua Amsterdam became my second home. Here by trial and error I learned a lot of new things, but most of all I unlearned a lot of old things and that is what I am especially grateful for, it is a process that – if everything is as it should be – for us human beings never stops.

Every week I attended the service and received a lesson from the torah, which was very practically translated to my everyday business. I was a wife and a mother of three daughters and beside that I worked 50 % as maternity care nurse, so I stood with both feet in daily life. And that is where the most processes took place: in my family, on the job, in my congregation.

Lech lecha… go for you… I was given the opportunity to learn to think and investigate for myself, to discuss, but most of all to wait. I went to leave my father and mother in the things they had passed on to me. I got to discover old schemes and to weigh which ones of them I wanted to keep and were right according to the Torah, and which ones I wanted to change for me and my children. I learned to give back my children and husband into the hands of Adonai and respect His plan with their lives and choices.

In the work groups I took part of, and the tasks I was to do, confrontations came along, I call them “mirror moments” where I chose to face my own part of the deal. At that time I asked myself: “Am I really beautiful (James 2:19-25) Naturally I was angry at the other person in most cases and used old learned tricks to defend myself. But more and more I learned to look at the process, my own attitude and the lesson I could learn from it. I wanted to learn the attitude of the new person!

Those personal lessons and the education from the Torah, I tried to pass them on to the children in the lessons that I was allowed to give. And in that way I gradually made the words I read in the Bible and heard in the services more of my own. By acting upon them. John 7:17 and Fillipians 4:9.

I am glad that I was allowed to make mistakes. Every time my attitude was the decisive factor how things went on. It was a painful but special process, like the birth of a child.

Esther was a woman who stood for her people with wisdom and courage. She dared to look at herself in the mirror. And the king noticed her heart! She is an example to me, to stand for the situations that occur in daily life. I want to take my stand. I want to mirror my attitude from the Torah to the world around me, both in words and in actions.